Well At Least When I Let Myself Down I Do It In Style...

... I've put on 3lbs. Not really suprising considering what I ate yesterday but as you can imagine i'm really disappointed with myself. I don't imagine it'll take more than a day or two to shift it but it's still annoying.

I cheated yesterday lunchtime. I had a panini when I was out in Milton Keynes with Mum. Then we called at Ikea so I had one of the delicious strawberry tarts they do. I was then ever so good and distracted myself around teatime so I didn't eat and only had a slimfast. Unfortunately my goodness didn't last and when we got back from the cinema I raided the fridge and, basically, ate dinner, at midnight, washed down with a yoghurt and meringue swirls. Of course by then I was sleepy so I went straight to bed.

Random tangent... My granddad is playing a cd of christmas carols full volume. WTF?????

All in all not a dieting success! I knew it was going to be harder to do it here. Also I can't help wondering if the fact that I feel fatter isn't making me lose a bit, or a lot, of my motivation. Where's my miracle, hey?? Surely I should be a size 10 by now??? At this point in time it would be very easy for me to throw my hands in the air and announce that I don't mind being "the fat girl"... which would be true... and that I don't want to be slimmer.... which would be a lie.

However, no giving up for me, no matter how much it might appeal. So i'm off to get a slimfast and panic quietly about the fact i'm eating out again tonight.

Until tomorrow...

xxx